Cat Love

Yeah, I'm kinda weird. I stumbled upon this intimate moment while looking for work for the kids to do, because I'm kind of a tyrant that way.

Because

Because I should have listened to myself when I was a teenager.

Because I was driven by gratitude.

Because I was thirsting for acceptance.

Because she tried to trap me and I was confused.

Because I needed something at the time. Anything.

Because I met some wonderful people, the best people in the world.

Because I was lost, frustrated, starving, depressed, and arrogant.

Because I had nowhere else to go.

Because I was crazy about her. I loved her.

Because it was easier than thinking about it.

Because there were friends there, and they cared about us, and we cared about them.

Because it was a good place, and it was so hot here.

Because I missed her.

Because nothing else was happening, we might as well try it.

Because she lived next to a volcano.

Because we had money. Can we ever do anything better with it?

Because I needed to apologize.

Because my daughter asked if we were atheists, and I could tell her that she can believe whatever she wants to believe.

Because I was tired of trying to make it work, trying to have it make sense.

Because after so long, honesty was easier.

Because I was tired of hiding.